Some days I forget I’m on a wire.
Recovery starts to feel comfortable—almost casual. I check the boxes, do the calls, weigh the food, say the prayers. But then something hits—stress, sadness, a memory, a craving—and suddenly I remember:
This isn’t solid ground.
This is a tightrope.
And I’m one bite away from falling.
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No Net Below
Addiction doesn’t negotiate. It doesn’t send a warning or offer a cushion. One bite… and I might be tumbling again. Back into obsession. Back into food math, food lies, food fog. And once I start falling, the climb back up isn’t guaranteed.
I’ve done it before.
And the rope felt higher the next time.
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What Keeps Me Balanced
The only way I can walk this tightrope is with a recovery pack on my back:
God: My safety line. My stabilizer. My power source.
Tools: Outreach, food plan, quiet time, meetings—my pole for balance.
Honesty: The ground may be far away, but lies make the rope snap.
Willingness: Even when I’m tired. Especially when I’m tired.
Others: I don’t walk alone. Ever. Even when I feel like I do.
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The Wind Always Comes
Triggers will blow. Cravings will hit. My mind will whisper things like:
“It’s just one bite.”
“You’ve been doing so well.”
“You deserve this.”
“No one will know.”
That wind is strong. But so is truth. And truth says: I’m one bite away from the fall. But I’m also one breath away from surrender.
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When I Fall… and When I Don’t
There have been times I’ve fallen. Hard. And getting back up meant shame, pain, distance from God and people I love.
But there have also been times I didn’t fall. When I paused. Called someone. Cried instead of ate. Prayed. Sat on my hands. Drank water. Rode the wave. And the rope held.
Those moments?
That’s recovery in action.
Not perfection. But direction.
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Today’s Work
Acknowledge the wire.
Accept the risk.
Take action.
Trust the rope.
Because recovery isn’t about staying off the rope.
It’s about learning to walk it.
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Still…
Still on the wire.
Still calling out for balance.
Still walking toward healing, one step—one bite-free moment—at a time.
DeeBo