Go Pro: The Shift I Haven’t Made (Yet)

Time to move up from the minor leagues.

At a meeting recently, someone shared something that stopped me in my tracks. He said there came a point in his life when he just decided to Go Pro—to stop playing around in the amateur leagues and commit fully to his recovery.

I haven't made that shift yet.

Those words—Go Pro—hit me hard because I know, deep down, that I’m still living in the amateur leagues of recovery. I show up, I do some of the work, but I haven’t fully surrendered. I still hold onto self-will. I still think I can negotiate with my addiction. I still act like I have a choice in this when the truth is, my life depends on going all in.

The Amateur Mindset vs. The Pro Mindset

I can see the difference so clearly now.

• Amateurs try. Pros commit.
  I’ve spent the majority of the last year trying to recover—dabbling, testing, seeing how much I can get away with. A pro doesn’t try; they commit fully because they know their survival depends on it.

• Amateurs wait for motivation. Pros act on discipline.
  I’ve been waiting for it to feel right, for the willingness to come naturally. But a pro doesn’t wait—they act, even when they don’t feel like it.

• Amateurs negotiate. Pros execute.
  I’m still bargaining with my disease, still justifying, still looking for loopholes. A pro doesn’t argue with the game plan—they follow it, no matter what.

I hear people in meetings who have made the shift. They live in recovery, not around it. Their peace, their freedom, their stability—it’s what I want. But I have to do what they do. I have to Go Pro.

Why I Haven’t Made the Shift (Yet)

Honest truth? Fear.

Going Pro means no more excuses. No more backup plans. No more clinging to old behaviors that kind of work. It means full surrender. And that terrifies me.

What if I fail?
What if I can’t do it?
What if I have to live the rest of my life without the comfort of food?

But the real question is—what happens if I don’t Go Pro?

I already know the answer. More of the same. More struggle. More half-measures, more self-will, more insanity. And I don’t want that anymore. I can’t afford it anymore.

The Decision I Need to Make

I have to decide: Do I stay in the amateur leagues, or do I step into the life I say I want?

Going Pro doesn’t mean perfection. It doesn’t mean I’ll never struggle. It means showing up every day and fully committing—following my plan, surrendering my self-will, relying on God, and not looking for a way out.

I don’t have to feel ready. I don’t have to feel confident. I just have to make the decision and take the action.

Because my life depends on it.

I have to Go Pro.

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